"I Can Do All Things Through Christ"

At this very moment I am sitting in my office, trying to convince myself that I don't need another cookie. Some of the big wigs flew in this morning to meet with staff, so lunch was brought in for the occasion. Well, lunch is brought in almost everyday for some reason or another, so this wasn't extremely special. The only difference is, there's more of it, with plenty of cookies left over. Anyway, I've already had my lunch and I am no longer hungry. Probably won't get hungry again until much later this evening. Just in time for dinner, providing I don't go for that cookie in the other room.

I know that I really only want the cookie because I'm distracted. I'm tired, I have a lot on my mind, and as much work as I have to do, I'm not focused. I'm tired because I woke up very early this morning, too early in fact, and those of you who know me personally, know that I am already an early riser by nature. Somewhere between 4:00-5:00 a.m. would be my usual. But this morning, I woke up at 2:00 a.m. with Phil 4:13 on my mind. "I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." Great thought to have, but I wondered why I had to wake up thinking about it, and, did it have to come so early? I've come to the conclusion that it may have something to do with that one-sided argument I had with God earlier in the day about wanting to change, but not knowing how to. Yes, I raised my voice. Sometimes I do that. I was very frustrated because there are just one too many things that I need to change, and am afraid that I just don't have what it takes to do so. And compared to the other things, changing the way I think about food, seems so easy.

I'm not a quitter so I'll keep at it. I said at the beginning of this journey that this was going to be a long haul because I'm making changes to last a lifetime, not just for a couple of months. And if He says I can do it, then I can do it. So let's get it done!

Now for that cookie...I think I've lost my appetite for it.