Thoughts lie

I'm at home, where I've been since about 5:45 this evening. I was very hungry when I got home so I warmed up some white chicken chili that I made yesterday. I ate a cup full, along with some toasted garlic pita bread. It's only been a little over an hour since I ate, and already I'm having thoughts of eating more. I DON'T WANT ANYMORE! I am quite satisfied thank you very much.

See, this is what I don't understand. Why, if my body isn't calling for any food, does my mind say, eat. I'm not bored, stressed, upset or depressed. I've been busy since I walked through the door, yet, these thoughts chant, eat some more, eat some more.

I can't control what thoughts pop into my head, but I can control how long they stay. My pastor always says, that "not every thought you have belongs to you." And that's essentially because our minds lie to us. So if that's the case, and this thought doesn't belong to me in the first place, then it's gotta go. I can exchange it for something more life-giving. I can exchange it for the Word of God. And I can change it now!

Heck, even writing has helped remove the thought of wanting to eat. I guess this blog is fulfilling it's purpose.

No Resolve

Wow, it's been a long time. I wish I could tell you that I've left Egypt, never to return. But that would be a big fat LIE! I'm still in Egypt and I've unpacked my bags and settled back in. It's a shame, I know. I'm not even comfortable here but I don't have the energy to get up and leave. Well, that's not completely true. I have plenty of energy and resolve in the morning. Everyday when I wake up, I'm determined to do the right thing that day. I tell myself that I can do it, and I usually do, until the meal after lunch. For some reason, it's like my thoughts go crazy. All that I thought about, and spoke to myself earlier that day, just kinda flies out the window. I gotta work on that, I know. I am...I will. It's a promise I've made to myself.